Wavering

I tend to find myself at a crossroads between my thoughts and my heart. Most of the times they tend to agree with one another. But on occasions when my mind wanders out into perilous waters, I begin to lose control of my thoughts. And they sink in the vast deep sea of emotions that drown me. Drown my heart into not feeling.  I know, I am well aware of the riptides that try to pull at me. And at my best, I can stand strong against those waves. The ones trying to pull me in. But it is in the quiet moments of despair, when I can no longer stand it, I drift away.